Okay, first of all, I already started this post, and was just going to write it about my life, this year compared to last year. Then after writing half of it, I realizd it was just as depressing as half of the messages I listened to on One Hello World. So I deleted it.
Second of all, I've been listening to the "We're All Shadows" message on One Hello World on repeat for this entire class. I really don't know why I like it so much, but whatevs.
Anyway, I don't really have a specific thing that I want to blog about today. I find myself just staring out the window, watching the snow fall rather then putting any real effort into this. And since my brain is still stuck on thinking about my life, I'm just gonna say it: I am so damn excited to leave Waterloo-Oxford. I'm excited to move away and go to university and actually do something with my life. After dropping down to four classes (one of which I'm going to drop), I kind of feel like I'm just wasting my time here. I wish I had been smart and switched to a semesterized school so that this would be my last week of high school. Usually when I say this to people, they're like "Awh, no you don't high school's the best time of your life, and you make so many friends that will last a lifetime, and have so many good memories." No. If high school is the best time of my life, the rest of my life is going to be absolute shit (pardon my language). I don't even feel that I made friends that would last a lifetime. I'm not close to anyone at this school anymore, and I'm totally okay with that. I never stay friends with the same group of people for too long, and this year I just decided it was too much effort to even care about that. I'm here for at most three hours a day, and during that time, I'm in class so I don't worry about socializing that much. And sure, I guess I have a couple of fond memories of this place, but those couple of good days get overshadowed by the hundreds of other crappy days.
I hate how we're known for being surrounded by cows, I hate that you can count the amount people who aren't white on two hands and I most definitly hate how the two top floors aren't connected. I'm excited to get out of here, and maybe actually do something that makes a difference in the world, rather then wasting away in classrooms trying to get the final TWO CREDITS I actually need to graduate.
I used to hate when people told me that hs was the best time of my life. I hear you. So, acne, hormones, stress, messed up relationships and fighting with my mom were the BEST experiences I was going to have? Maybe it was a ploy to give the school counsellors more business.
ReplyDeleteTrust me, high school can be amazing for some, awful for others, and "meh" for the rest. Truth is, the rest of your life is so much more in YOUR own control and the best adventures are likely waiting for you.